Summer Soulstice

SOULSTICE. It's all that is on my mind. I'm promoting like crazy and planning like crazy. There is so much responsibility involved with this trip, and I feel such a heavy burden of all that needs to be done and the mandatory-ness of 100 kids at Soulstice. I am so overwhelmed, and at times I feel so alone in this. But I know I am not alone - not only do I have an amazing team and leaders and staff who are competent to help me but I also have God who apparently has called me for this. Tonight as I began my nightly cry because of this looming weight, worry, and fear I thought I am so young. I am 21 and yet I am responsible for so much. I feel like I know nothing and I'm not strong enough to handle this, and yet I am reminded from Sunday's message in church that when God calls people, He calls the weak, the sinners, the broken-hearted because He works through them and His power shines through them. So I am just waiting to be used and stretched and I'm relying on the strength of God. I try to remind myself that I'm doing this for the glory of God and that it is by His strength not my own that this trip will be pulled off.